I make no apologies for what I write here. This is just me, how I feel and what I think on this journey. I don't mean to sound angry or bitter, this is all about healing with no holding back.
I stopped working full-time and dropped down to part-time work this year. After going back in November last year, it got too much, it got too hard. In retrospect, I went back to early. Anyway, the idea was to spend these "days off" for grieving, healing, time for me. It ended up more like avoiding the grieving and finding something to "busy" myself with.
Now, here I am. Not avoiding and using this blog as a way of writing out how I feel and what I think.
Today, I watched the STILL project YouTube video of some amazing people within this community of grieving parents, I never knew. If you have time, watch it. I don't think it's just for grieving parents but education to others to help them understand how we feel and why we do the things we do. Maybe there's something you can learn to help a grieving friend.
In the short time that I've been part of this community, I've met, in person and online, some wonderful and beautiful people. I would take it all back, as they say in the video, if it meant I could have Annabelle in my arms.
I want to heal and I want Annabelle to be remembered. My life, as I know it, will never be the same.
I stopped working full-time and dropped down to part-time work this year. After going back in November last year, it got too much, it got too hard. In retrospect, I went back to early. Anyway, the idea was to spend these "days off" for grieving, healing, time for me. It ended up more like avoiding the grieving and finding something to "busy" myself with.
Now, here I am. Not avoiding and using this blog as a way of writing out how I feel and what I think.
Today, I watched the STILL project YouTube video of some amazing people within this community of grieving parents, I never knew. If you have time, watch it. I don't think it's just for grieving parents but education to others to help them understand how we feel and why we do the things we do. Maybe there's something you can learn to help a grieving friend.
In the short time that I've been part of this community, I've met, in person and online, some wonderful and beautiful people. I would take it all back, as they say in the video, if it meant I could have Annabelle in my arms.
I want to heal and I want Annabelle to be remembered. My life, as I know it, will never be the same.